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CONTENTS |
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MANDARIN |
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Part 1: THE DIAMOND SON |
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1.
The Escapade |
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2.
Pandemonium |
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3.
My First Trial |
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4.
Uncles and Aunties |
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5.
The Mad Monk |
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6.
Fight and Flee |
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7.
The Open Mind |
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8.
The Inner Voice |
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9.
My Village Wife |
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10.My First family |
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11.Father and Son |
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Part 2: BLOOD AND TEARS |
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12. The French in Ha Noi |
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13. On a Junk to China |
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14. The Center |
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15.
The Heaven and Earth Bombing |
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16. Tokyo |
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17. Homecoming |
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18. Cracks in the Facade |
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19. My Second Family |
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20. The District Administrator |
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21. Bangkok Interlude |
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22.
The Northern Alliance |
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23. Death of the Grey Tiger |
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24. The Face of Communism |
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25. Nakazono and Chiang |
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Part 3: TRAGEDY AND FARCE |
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26. Lady Thuy |
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27. The Provincial Governor |
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28. Tragedy and Farce |
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29. A Voice from the Past |
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30. Hiding the Family Fortune |
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31.
Red Sun White Sky |
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32.
White Sun Blue Sky |
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33. United in Failure |
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34. Xuan Returns |
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Part 4: REBIRTH |
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35. The Love Child |
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36. The Concubine |
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37.
My Second Trial |
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38. Capture |
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39.
Releasing the Spirit |
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40. Rebirth |
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Foreword
Mandarin covers some seventy years, from 1883 to
1954, a momentous period in the history of Viet Nam which
saw the death of colonialism and the birth of communism. We
follow Bach, the Mandarin of the title, whose life mirrors
these cataclysmic changes, at first as a boy in a rich and
influential Court family in feudal Viet Nam at the turn of
the century; then as an impassioned young man who flees
French colonialism at home to live in self-imposed exile
abroad at a time when Marxism, Socialism and Communism are
reshaping the world; then as an embattled Mandarin
struggling with the political and social realities of life
under the Japanese occupation; and finally as an old man who
looks back on life, after surviving a death sentence by the
Viet Minh, who labeled him a blood-sucking landlord and
oppressor of the people.
Excerpt from Part 1: Chapter 1: The Escapade
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That
Sunday morning I woke up very early, my mind on fire, ready
for adventure. Nanny Thao was snoring softly in her bed next
to mine but Xuan was already awake. He was my houseboy and
slept on a reed mat at the foot of my bed. I quickly pulled
on loose-fitting, shiny black cotton pantaloons and a white,
collar-less silk tunic with long sleeves, slipped into
rubber-soled brown cloth slippers, taking care not to make
any noise. Signaling for Xuan to follow, I sneaked out of
the bedroom and ran silently downstairs into the grand,
ornate main hall and out into the inner gardens, the pride
and joy of my mother. My parents were still asleep, and the
many inner compound servants were nowhere to be seen. At the
main door, I looked at Xuan, my mind racing. He looked back;
our eyes locked. His normally broad, homely face was
excited, with eyes wide open and the eyebrows almost at the
hairline. We both knew that today was the day.
****
On the other
side of my mother’s carefully-tended gardens, with their
hundreds of miniature trees and hanging orchids, were a
number of smaller buildings used as dining halls for lesser
guests or for card games. The pleasant smells of wet grass
and morning dew hung in the air. We crossed through these
into the spotless, empty inner courtyard. This was a large,
flat surface, paved with bricks, crisscrossed diagonally
with grass and bordered with colorful plants. A large, wide
alabaster fountain stood in the middle, decorated with
dragons and phoenixes, with lotus leaves floating on the
surface of the placid water. I crossed the yard and
carefully pulled back the brass bolt on a small lacquered
door in the wall that separated the inner compound from the
outer one. Xuan was right behind me. We found ourselves in
the outer compound, where workers and servants lived in row
upon row of thatch-roofed huts. Beyond the outer compound,
which was already like another world to me, ran the thick
manor walls, on top of which armed guards could be seen.
In
accordance with the plan I had made, we walked slowly so as
not to draw the attention of the workers, who had been up
since well before dawn. One worker might report it later to
the inner compound servants, who would in turn report it to
the main household staff, who would report it to nanny, who
would alert my mother, resulting in all sorts of
complications. Xuan, barefooted, with loose-fitting brown
pantaloons and a brown short-sleeved tunic made of coarse
material, would not have attracted attention, but my white
silk shirt and black pants stood out from a distance. I had
thought of wearing something less conspicuous, but diamond
sons don’t have nondescript clothes.
The
forbidding manor walls that ringed the outer compound had
four massive gates, each facing one major point of the
compass. On top of the gates, pacing back and forth along
the battlements, were armed sentries. Near each gate was a
small barrack, filled with guards who were in various stages
of getting up. We carefully avoided these, and headed for
the pigsties near the southern gate. Near these crude pens,
a small tunnel was hidden in between a large straw stack and
some broken-down carts.
It had been
dug out by casual laborers employed on the estate, hired
hands who had wanted to go in and out of the manor without
being searched by the guards. When discovered, these bolt
holes were promptly filled in but within the month new ones
had appeared.
Xuan knew
where these holes were because his parents were permanent
laborers who lived in the outer compound. When I had first
said I wanted to see what was outside the manor walls, he
had shown me one such hole. That was two months ago. It was
a different hole now, the other one having been spotted by
the manor guards. As we burrowed under a large, shaggy
bale of straw to avoid being seen, the pungent, sour smell
of pig slop and wet straw assailed my nostrils. Being
squeezed in with Xuan, I could also recognize the familiar
smell of his sweat. Unlike me, he didn’t have to be washed
twice a day, and he could smell like a normal person, like
most of the workers on the estate, whereas my sisters and I
always smelt faintly of some fragrance or other. We were
scrubbed down by our respective nannies before lunch and
after dinner every day, without fail, before being patted
over with perfumed toilet water. To clean his teeth when he
felt like it, Xuan would gargle with water, swish it around
his mouth, and spit it out in a high arc, while my sisters
and I watched with admiration. Sometimes he would add salt
to the water. My sisters and I, on the other hand, had to
undergo two cleaning operations each day, after meals.
Cotton wool was dipped into alcohol and wrapped around a
chopstick, and nanny would then carefully rub it against
each tooth, while our jaws were forced open to the point of
dislocation.
Xuan was
only two years older than me, but already much stronger. His
sole responsibility in life, at age twelve, was to service
me in any way required. He was my personal servant,
companion and friend, all rolled into one. Because he was a
little older than me, and from the lower social classes, he
was expected to be more level-headed than I was. Nanny
thought he would be a good counterweight to my personality,
which veered from natural caution to wild abandon for no
apparent reason. In fact, in spite of his solid, stoic
appearance, Xuan could be depended on to agree with whatever
crazy scheme I thought up. Of limited imagination, he
trusted my judgement implicitly. He slept without a mosquito
net at the foot of my king-sized bed, with thick pillars
supporting a mosquito net of the finest muslin. He ate
whatever was left over from my plate. He never seemed to
catch cold, have a cough or a stomach ache, and he was on
call day and night. He loved his job and his parents
considered themselves lucky beyond words that their son had
been chosen out of many candidates by my mother on the
recommendation of my nanny.
****
After checking
out the terrain, Xuan duck-walked the short distance to the
tunnel in the manor wall, with me right behind. The ground
was too dirty to crawl on, and we couldn’t stand up, so we
waddled along in a squatting position. It was hilarious, and
I felt a thrill shoot through me. This would be the first
time I ventured outside the manor, although it wouldn’t be
the first time I had discussed it with Xuan. In my mind, I
had already sneaked out of the manor a number of times. But
today, things were different. It was for real. We crawled
under the bushes as soon as we cleared the manor walls.
Glancing up, we could see the guards walking their beat.
Occasionally, we heard snatches of conversation from the top
of the ramparts. Once in while, a guard would walk up to the
edge of the wall and look around. Stray dogs from the
surrounding villages below often came up to the manor walls,
attracted by the smells of cooking inside the fortress-like
compound. They would chase one another around, their
playfulness sometimes erupting into serious fights. At other
times, they would mate and become locked in coitus. The
guards, bored by their endless sentry duty, would throw
rocks and clods of earth at the dogs to disperse them. Once
in a while, an archer would let loose an arrow or two and
hit a dog, which would run off with the arrow sticking out
of its rump, yelping its head off, followed by the rest of
the pack.
As we
squatted there, I whispered to Xuan that if a guard should
see us and shout we should stand up at once otherwise he
might think we were dogs and put an arrow in our arse. He
laughed silently, and then wiggled his bushy eyebrows up and
down, as if he were signaling. This was one of his
mannerisms, and I often found myself copying him, only to be
roundly told off by nanny, who said that she would send him
away if I caught “that stupid habit".
But today
all was quiet. Avoiding the roads and paths that led into
the valley, we sneaked from bush to bush, banana grove to
banana grove, bamboo cluster to bamboo cluster, using the
vegetation as our cover. The manor sat on top of a hill and
as we slipped and slid our way down, the top of the ramparts
soon disappeared from view.
It was not yet
the planting season and empty brown mud fields filled the
valley. Each plot of land was surrounded by low, reddish
earthen dikes, with clumps of banana trees here and there.
The unfamiliar smell of night soil, wet mud and coarse wild
grass greeted my nostrils. Beyond the fields small villages
nestled here and there in thick clumps of bamboo or banana
trees. Far away in the distance, running from east to west,
I could see a dark and forbidding range of mountains, with
ridges and humps, in the shape of a woman lying down, with
her head pointing East. This was the famous Woman of the
Mountain. Everyone knew the story about this mountain, which
had originally been a woman. Her husband and her son had one
day left the province to go on a long fishing trip and never
returned. She had lain down to wait for them, and had been
turned into a mountain. The outline of her face, with a nose
and chin, could clearly be seen at one end, looking up at
the sky. Further west were two humps that could be construed
as her two breasts. A small waterfall even further west was
said to be her private parts. People always snickered when
they got to this part of the story. Far to the west lay her
feet, and there ran a large river. There was also a story
about this river, and my father had told it to me many times
as part of his long repertoire of bedtime stories for his
favorite son. The gods had placed the river there to soothe
the poor woman’s feet in the daytime, and at night carried
her down to the beach so she could look for her family.
Before dawn, however, the river always reversed its course
and brought her back to her resting-place on the mountain.
My father always pursed his lips and nodded solemnly at this
part, and I felt a growing admiration for the way this river
took such kind and good care of the poor Woman of the
Mountain.
As we
walked away from the manor, we talked in whispers. I don’t
know why, because there was no one in sight. My mind was
running along at great speed, with many thoughts all jumbled
up. So much was happening. Being the eldest son of a
prominent Court family, I had led a sheltered life. What
little I knew of the world outside the family manor came
from my tutors, tailors, barbers, and even from Xuan, who
somehow knew much about the outside world although he was
only two years older than me. I had become aware that
outside the manor’s huge outer compound there was a
different and exciting world, where my barber said a million
and one things existed. It was in this way that I had heard
about a small pagoda near the south gate, where a mad monk
practiced martial arts all by himself at sunrise, laughing
like a crazy man. It was said that this same monk had killed
a tiger with his bare hands, that he could pulverize a large
rock into powder with one punch, and that he could drive his
fingers through a banana tree trunk with one thrust of his
open hand. It was also said that this monk, whom everyone
called the Mad Monk, could change into a crow and fly over
mountains, or turn into a fox and hunt chickens at night.
Intrigued by these stories and curious by nature, I felt
that I had to go and watch the Mad Monk at morning practice,
and I talked Xuan into it. At first he didn’t seem keen on
the idea, perhaps because he instinctively knew that if our
escapade were reported to my parents he would be severely
beaten for not having discouraged me from undertaking such a
dangerous adventure. He knew that diamond sons were never
blamed for anything they did, but that everyone else
involved with them would be. But he was still young, we were
good friends, and my enthusiasm carried him along, as usual.
I had
decided not to tell my parents about my intentions, or even
nanny, who had been my wet nurse and who knew all my secrets
but never talked about them in front of my mother. I had a
feeling they would all be against the idea. Mother, while
kind, was quite strict. Father was generally a no-nonsense,
military kind of person who liked children to be on their
best behavior at all times. Unlike Xuan, I was not afraid of
being beaten, because I knew that this would never happen,
but I disliked the thought of being scolded by an adult. On
the few occasions that this had happened I had felt
belittled and confused, unable to think of what to say to
defend myself, and my emotions had choked me, making me want
to cry. So I decided to sneak out at sunrise and be back
before breakfast. No one would know. Xuan would give me
moral support as well as help me find my way there and back
in case I got lost.
I walked in
the direction of the mountain woman’s feet for one thousand
steps, following the directions given to me by my barber. He
was a large old man who gently shaved my head every month,
leaving only small tufts on the side and at the top, so that
Buddha could catch me if I fell. I walked in the lead along
a narrow beaten path, flattened over the years by
generations of barefooted peasants who lived and worked on
my father’s land. I felt it was natural that I should lead
the expedition, because it was my idea, although I was glad
he was behind me. When I reached the large, placid river I
admired so much, I turned left and walked along its wide
banks, heading for a dense bamboo copse about two kilometers
away. It was not the sort of walk I was used to, and I can’t
say that I enjoyed it, but at no time did I ever think about
turning back. Generally cautious, I liked to plan things
out, but, once committed, I would go on till the end.
Nevertheless, every now and again, I looked back to make
sure Xuan was still there. It was always reassuring to see
him plodding along, his face expressionless until he saw me
looking back at him. A conspiratorial smile would then
appear on his broad face and we would grimace at each other.
When we were in private, we talked to each other in the
colloquial way children from lesser families did. We looked
directly into each other’s eyes, and he addressed me as
“young uncle”, as befitted my social station, although I was
two years younger than him. I addressed him as “big
brother”, to show our age difference. In public, things
became more complicated. He had to call me “young master”
and couldn’t make eye contact during conversation, while I
addressed him directly by name, as one does a young servant.
I also rarely turned my face in his direction when I spoke
to him. We had to do this because the adults insisted that
proper social decorum be observed at all times in a
master-servant relationship.
****
When I saw the
roof of the pagoda in the distance, I knew I had found the
right place although I was surprised to see that the pagoda
walls were orange in color. Most of the pagodas I had seen
when visiting nearby manors with my Father had yellow walls.
I advanced carefully, keeping low, staying in the shadows
where possible, hiding behind bushes and bamboo clumps. As I
maneuvered to get nearer, I suddenly remembered the old
countryside saying, “Where there are bamboos there are
tigers”. A shiver of fear ran through me as I squatted in
the bamboo grove, peering through the smooth green trunks at
the pagoda. I then remembered the Mad Monk’s tiger-killing
prowess, and here I was hiding, stalking, watching, just
like a tiger. What if he thought I was a tiger and rushed
over and killed me? Would I have time to run away? What if
he could really fly and swooped down on me as I ran through
the rice fields?
I decided
that if the Mad Monk sensed that I was there, spying on him,
I would stand up and announce I was the son of Lord Giap.
Surely the monk, however mad, would not kill a small boy,
especially one from a Court family. I knew that people
around the manor feared my father. Reassured, I crept
forward until I could see the small courtyard in front of
the pagoda. Behind me, Xuan moved like a shadow.
A
thick-bodied man with a bald crown ringed by shoulder-length
black hair and a face marked by a curving moustache and a
short beard was exercising. He moved slowly, executing a
series of dance-like movements, holding each pose for a few
seconds before moving on to the next. He was big, like a
bear, and he had the same extraordinary sense of balance.
For all his bulk, he was remarkably supple. After a while,
he stopped exercising and inhaled deeply, sending the air
all the way down to the pit of his stomach. He held it there
for an eternity, then breathed out slowly, until no air was
left in the lungs, after which his stomach became a concave
arch, flattened against the inside of his spine. He then
paused, for what seemed an eternity, and slowly began
sucking air into his lungs and stomach again.
****
Time went
by, the sun rose, while we both watched, entranced. In my
mind, I knew that I should be returning to the manor by
then, but a stubborn trait rooted me to the ground. I half
expected Xuan to tug at my sleeve and whisper that we should
be going, but he said nothing. I think that was one of the
reasons I liked him so much. He always agreed with whatever
I did.
The Mad
Monk was now doing a sort of shadow boxing, dodging and
evading imaginary blows and retaliating by kicking and
punching in the four directions in rapid succession, many
times. He then sank to the ground on one leg, swept the
other in a complete circle, sprang up, turning around while
still in the air, then fell softly onto his feet, letting
out a roar like a tiger. The sound startled us out of our
wits, and I almost bolted for home but didn’t. I saw him
relax, and start all over again. The sun rose higher,
rivulets of sweat covered my face, running onto my chest.
****
After a long
time, perhaps thirty minutes or more, the monk wiped himself
down with a small cloth. He reached for a coconut
shell that had
been cut in half and scooped up a draught of water from an
open jar and drank copiously. He wiped himself
down, had
another drink of water, jumped up and down to loosen up,
then started laughing loudly. He laughed and laughed
until the
sweat ran down in streams all over his face onto his body.
Each laugh started in the pit of his stomach, rumbled up to
his lungs and
exploded through his large open mouth, carrying for miles,
reaching the chain of mountains. My ears went deaf
with this
torrent of sound. Suddenly the Mad Monk stopped laughing and
sat down on a nearby rock, with his back to us. In
a loud but
friendly voice he said, “Come here, both of you. Don’t be
afraid. Come here, boys.”
I stood up,
covered with sweat, weak at the knees, with butterflies in
my stomach. My lips were trembling. Behind me, Xuan also
stood up, his jaws clenched tight. He looked like a servant
who was about to receive a beating. After a while, I moved
tentatively forward, and he followed. When we were standing
in front of the monk, we saw what a large man he was. The
smell of his sweat was sour and earthy, but I didn’t dare
wrinkle my nose.
“I heard
you two long before you arrived at the bamboo clumps there,”
he said in a matter-of-fact voice. “I am teaching a class to
young boys like yourselves in about one hour. You are
welcome to stay and watch. You can sit here and wait, or
come back another day.”
Excerpt from Part 1: Chapter 4: Uncles And Aunties
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When my father's friends visited us, everyone huddled
together, sipped bitter green tea, sucked noisily on water
pipes, drank rice wine and discussed politics long into the
night. Mandarins or high Court officials, landowners and men
of means, they advised the Emperor and had traditionally
kept the country running through their control of the civil,
military and security services. These men, who all called me
"nephew" and whom I invariably addressed as "uncles",
belonged to the traditional stream of Vietnamese society,
like my father. They had black lacquered teeth, wore blue
turbans and let their thumbnails grow long and curved to
show they were scholars. Heirs to the scholar-warrior
generations of yesteryear who had fought China to a
standstill, they had decimated the Cham and Khmer empires in
the 939 AD Southern March campaign, annexing central and
southern Viet Nam in the process. Before the French
colonized our country, these men had set their sight on
Siam, and had sent spies and settlers into its northern
provinces with a view to annexing them. They were born
politicians who understood the exercise of power. In the
French they saw greedy and domineering barbarians backed by
muskets and cannons, a race without culture or creed. Unlike
the Chinese, there was little to be learned from them and
the quicker they could be thrown out the better.
"It took us a thousand years to evict the Chinese," they
often said to me, "but the French won't even last a
hundred".
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Three months later, I was married to my village wife,
Phuong. I had known her for many years, because she lived
with her grandmother within the manor walls. Although they
lived in the outer-compound, and Xuan and I played in the
inner-compound with other inner-compound children, she and
other outer-compound children would often join us. She was
then a tall, cheerful girl who giggled a lot. Now she was a
pleasant looking young woman, two years older than me. On
our wedding night, I was a virgin, and I didn't know how to
get started. I had seen farm animals mating, and dogs locked
in coitus, but I knew vaguely that human beings did it
differently. Until that day, no one had ever told me
anything about sex.
When we found ourselves alone, finally, I closed the door of
my bedroom and sat down on the bed. Nanny had long ago
stopped sleeping in my room, as had Xuan. I looked at her,
and she smiled. We were only a meter-and-a-half apart, but
it could have been ten kilometers. My mind was a complete
blank, and not the result of wu wei either. My years of gong
fu training had deserted me in the first second after the
door closed and a blindfolded dwarf could have beaten me up.
Phuong could see I was nervous and had no idea what to do
next, so she came over and sat down very near me. She laid a
hand on my thigh, caressing me gently, while looking into my
eyes. With growing horror, I felt an erection coming up. I
turned and smiled at her, as if I had just seen her for the
first time, wondering desperately what the Mad Monk would
have done. I sat there, mouth agape, my mind and body having
turned into a vegetable-like texture except for one part of
me that I couldn't control, a part that was growing and
throbbing in unison with the wild drumbeats of my heart.
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The moment I walked into the Heaven and Earth teahouse, I
felt there would be trouble. A little street urchin had
handed me a cryptic note that morning which read in Chinese,
"Meeting at Heaven and Earth teahouse at noon today. PBC".
It was lunchtime, and the centrally situated tavern was
packed from wall to wall. Delicious smells wafted out of the
kitchen, into the dining hall, out into Golden Gate Avenue.
My mouth watered as my eyes swept the room. On the right sat
the well-to-do, wearing silk robes, with long fingernails
and perfectly plaited pig-tails, Manchurian style. They
smelt of a faint perfume, their feet encased in
satin-covered clogs with high cork soles. They smoked
English cigarettes, or pipes with American tobacco that
smelt of honey. This was called the Heaven Side. On the left
of the room sat the other classes, some in working clothes,
with uncombed hair, thick fingers, dirty fingernails, coarse
accents and a common vocabulary. They ate large bowls of
noodles, slurping up the liquid loudly. They smoked cheap,
badly cured local tobacco. This was called the Earth Side.
I let my eyes rest upon the man next to Young Master Sung. A
short, slim, shaven-headed man, his skin the color of gold,
with heavy-lidded eyes, thick black eyebrows and dark jowls.
He shielded his mouth politely when he laughed, and listened
intently to whoever was speaking at the time, but never made
eye contact. He listened a lot more than he spoke, nodding
along with the speaker. When he did speak, he did so in a
self-confident manner. He's a Japanese, I thought. After a
while, I remembered who he was. He was on our list, at the
Center. It was Colonel Mutsuharu Nakazono, of the Japanese
Imperial Army, who had been seconded to the Japanese
Ambassador to Peking.
Behind me, a group of Chinese students, all wearing the
obligatory dark middle-school uniforms and sporting the
mandatory shaven heads, were becoming noisier by the minute.
They were singing a Chinese ditty that was popular at the
time, in which Europeans were hungry wolves, the Japanese
running dogs and the Russians barbarians at the gate. These
three "turtle droppings and foul-smelling eggs", a common
Cantonese insult, all wanted to exploit, rob and rape China.
Not one word was said about the Manchurian rulers of China,
who had been doing exactly that and more for some three
hundred years, but every Han Chinese in the room knew
immediately who the song was aimed at.
I felt the hair rise on the back of my neck. The invisible
man feared no danger, the Mad Monk had said. In one smooth
movement, I slid beneath the table and at that very moment a
violent explosion shook the room. Tables jumped into the
air, teapots flew across the dining hall and customers fell
to the floor. The many windows blew outward, and the
explosion ripped out the delicate screens used to divide the
room into private cubicles.
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In Kunming, we were picked up by our Kuo Min Tang escort,
which arranged for train tickets and private cars to Zheng
Zhou and from thence to Peking. The KMT escort consisted of
one army officer with a gold tooth and six surly-looking
soldiers, all heavily armed because bandits often stopped
the train to rob and rape the passengers. Near Chungking,
half way to Zheng Zhou, the train came to a halt at a bend
in the railroad track because large logs had been placed
across them. On our right, just outside the window, was a
sheer cliff with jagged rocks far below. On our left was
scrubland at the foot of the mountain that we were circling
to get north. A group of armed men, sitting on small, tan
mountain ponies, had appeared from the bushes. The bandits
all wore false red beards and carried assorted weapons,
including old army rifles.
We were lined up along the left side of the train and the
bandit leader, a villainous looking man with bandoleers of
ammunition crisscrossing his thick chest, walked up and
down, inspecting each man and woman carefully. He ran his
hands over their clothes lightly, to see if they had wafers
of 24 karat gold sewn into the lining of their clothes.
I saw a small movement from behind one of the cars and I
recognized a dirty white face towel with red Chinese
characters printed on it that I had seen tied to the tip of
the muzzle of a heavy machine gun. I had noticed the weapon
when we got on board the train. It was the notorious Maxim
7.92mm Model 1908, made in Germany, a weapon that had mowed
down thousands in the opening years of World War One. It was
cradled in the arms of a KMT sergeant. A breeze had made the
towel move gently. The cloth prevented light reflecting from
the muzzle and giving the gun's position away.
The bandit chief reached me, shoved his face into mine and
said something. He had yellow, broken teeth and his breath
would have curdled milk. His sausage-like fingers tightened
around my arm. He had felt the jade tiger head my Father had
given, sewn into my jacket, near the armpit. A rush of
adrenalin surged through my veins. The reptilian mind,
releasing minute quantities of the chemical, was priming the
body for action. When the bandit chief tugged at my jacket I
drove my fingers with great speed and precision into the
hollow just below his Adam's apple. It was just like we had
practiced under the Mad Monk except that there was no
holding back this time, and it was easier to do it for real.
Then the machine gun opened up and mowed every horseman
down. I noticed that the KMT soldiers were also shooting the
horses. The passengers immediately rushed to the fallen
bandits, manhandling them roughly in a search for money or
valuables, fighting among themselves. They stripped the
bodies of their neck chains, bracelets, rings, knives,
daggers and army boot. The officer was smiling broadly, his
gold tooth flashing in the sunshine. His men were busy
cutting up the horses and carrying huge chunks of meat,
still spurting bright red blood, up into the empty
carriages.
Excerpts from Part 3: Chapter 31: Red Sun, White Sky
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At the rate the Japanese army was stripping the country of
everything that was edible, famine was inevitable and over
the next three years whole villages began uprooting
themselves and moving to the cities in search of food. In
the countryside, children became dehydrated and died. Older
men and women quietly passed away in their sleep at night.
The Japanese, ever efficient and ever fearful of diseases,
formed a burial force that drove from village to village to
collect and cremate the bodies. In the cities, it was just
as bad. One barefooted beggar, outside a house I was
visiting in the capital, was tugging at the bell and
chanting "So hungry, so hungry" repeatedly. The old man was
barely covered by tattered rags, and his emaciated ribcage
was showing. In his arms he held a very young girl. Her
oversized head hung down at a strange angle, her mouth
opened and shut but no sound came out. The German shepherds
barked furiously, drawing us out onto the second floor
verandah, from where we looked down on the scene. The
servants ran out, chased the dogs off and shook their heads
at the old man, waving their hands in the air to show that
there was no food in the house. The man turned towards us,
staring upwards. We saw that he was blind in one eye. He
smiled a slow, quivering smile, revealing a toothless mouth,
his hand pointing at the dying child. Then his eyebrows
knitted, his mouth opened wide and he fell over, dead, still
clutching tightly onto the child.
*****
On another
occasion, while in the beach resort of Sam Son on family
business, I saw a small, thin peasant woman sitting on a
railing, wearing rough, brown rice sacks. She was holding a
baby boy upside down by one leg with one hand, while
skewering his anus with a piece of wire with the other,
causing a fine chalk-like dust to drift onto her lap. She
shook him about like a rag doll every now and again. His
small, unformed penis flopped up and down as she tried to
induce a bowel movement in the child, refusing to accept the
fact that he was already dead. Both mother and son hadn't
eaten for days, and the boy had been the first to succumb.
Excerpt from Part 3: Chapter 32: White Sun, Blue Sky
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In the main dining room, I had laid on a feast for the
Nationalist officers. I remembered the KMT forces I had
worked with in China, and knew that good food, and plenty of
it, was the way to their heart. There were six of them, two
of them colonels. Starting at noon, they ate their way
steadily through piles of noodles, chickens, ducks, dog
meat, goat meat and all sorts of seafood. They used their
hands as well as spoons and chop-sticks, quaffing down fine
French wine as if they were drinking beer, burping and
belching noisily all the while to show their appreciation.
During this disgusting display of gluttony and bad manners,
I talked to them without stop in fluent Chinese, which
surprised them. I expounded at length on my friendship with
generalissimo Chiang Kai Shek, my friendship with Dr Sun Yat
Sen, my political party, named the VNQDD, which meant Kuo
Min Tang in Vietnamese. I spoke about Peking and Canton and
Shanghai as if I had lived there all my life, dropping names
right, left and center like bombshells, aware that only
respect for what I said could stop these gross and cunning
peasants from digging up the manor in search of gold. They
paused in their feeding every now and again when a name they
recognized came out of my mouth, but there was no
significant reaction. They had never met the generalissimo,
had only vaguely heard of Dr Sun, and barely understood what
republicanism was all about. None of them had ever been to
Canton, let alone Shanghai. Peking could have been on
another planet. In between cramming their mouths with food
and belching, they told me they been on the run from the
Japanese ever since they had been forcefully drafted by
"those KMT bastards" and couldn't believe their luck when
they were told they had won the war. They said that the same
KMT bastards, now called the Nationalists, had sent them to
Viet Nam as a reward and had told them they could take
whatever war booty they liked.
Later, in an effort to show appreciation for what had been a
sumptuous feed, they declared that they were sure they would
not receive as much hospitality anywhere as I had shown
them. Then, remembering that they were officers of the
Nationalist Army, which had won the war, they talked among
themselves to see what gift they could give me, their host.
After some intense discussion, one of the colonels walked
over and ceremoniously handed me a small Nationalist flag, a
blazing white sun against an imperial blue sky on a red
background. I thanked him profusely.
Excerpts from Part 4: Chapter 37: My Second Trial
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Small soldiers in green uniforms stood all around me. They
stood in a disciplined circle, guns casually slung across
their backs. This was the bo doi, the Viet Minh infantry
that had dealt the French Expeditionary Corps a death blow
at Dien Bien Phu only nine months before. The crowd looked
at the soldiers with a sense of unease. The green men were
relaxed, but unsmiling. They seemed to respond to some sort
of internal control mechanism and went about their business
without any orders being given.
In front of the judge lay piles of documents, bound with
string, carefully prepared by the People's Committee of
Thanh Hoa. In a biscuit tin were a number of pencils and
pens. In another tin, five or six wooden stamps, the
ultimate sign of authority. It was the second day of the
Lunar New Year, a moonless night, and it was bitterly cold.
Luckily, the fine drizzle that often accompanies the Lunar
New Year was missing that night. Outside the circle a crowd
had formed of peasant families and ex-servicemen. Half of
the crowd was made up of locals, who had turned up in
anticipation of a good show. The other half had been trucked
in by the army from outlying villages. Land Reform trials
were important events in the communist calendar because they
brought home in a most graphic way the basic tenet of
Marxism-Leninism: the inevitability of class war, which led
to the triumph of the masses and the building of socialism.
Consequently, great efforts were made to ensure full
attendance, with maximum crowd participation.
My hands had been tied behind my back. My hair and eyebrows
had been crudely shaved off and around my neck I wore a
large cardboard sign, like all the other landlords, on which
my crime had been written. On mine, crude letters in black
paint screamed "I drank the people's blood".
*****
At about midnight, the trials began. The first landlord was
made to stand up and walk around the edge of the circle,
facing out into the crowd. It was Tam, the son of Lord Hung,
my father's close friend. The charges against him were read,
one by one, by the presiding judge. The crowd howled and
hooted at each charge, working itself up into a state of
fury, spitting and throwing dirt at the landlord who walked
slowly by, held up by two soldiers. Finally, the judge held
up his hands and the crowd lapsed into respectful silence.
Official stamps were now solemnly affixed to the charge
sheets, indicating that the charges had been made public.
The government, being of the people, wanted to show the
transparency of its actions. The first stage of this
landlord's trial was over.
*****
A number of hands went up. Those concerned were invited to
come forward and add to the crimes already recorded. This
was the most exciting part of the trials. Hatred and envy
that had festered in the consciousness of the masses over
hundreds of generations could finally surface. Ordinary and
inconsequential people could now step forward and accuse the
rich and the powerful of real or imagined crimes. Since
there was no need to back up these accusations with any
evidence or proof, the accusers could have a field day
dreaming things up and hurling them at the accused, who was
very often a person they had never met. Some peasants,
having drunk rice wine all night, would stand up, stumble
through the line of soldiers right up to the landlord, spit
in his face and begin to rave and rant incoherently before
falling down dead drunk. The crowd would laugh and jeer at
the landlord, and cheer the drunk on. One woman ran up to
the first landlord being tried and began slapping and
kicking him, screaming invective at him, accusing him of
repeated rape. Encouraged, more and more people came forward
with additional charges. Someone shouted out "Long live the
Party! Long live our Land Reform program!" and soon this cry
was taken up by the crowd. The judge smiled and held up his
hands; calm returned and the trial ground on. The circuit
judge's fifth man, the Land Reform cadre who had aroused the
crowd, casually blended into the throng and moved to the
other side of the circle. It was going to be a long night,
and he knew his intervention would be needed again. It
wouldn't do for him to keep popping up in the same place all
the time, always with the same message of support for the
government. He sank back into an empty space, yawned and
took a nap.
*****
"Comrade Bach,
you have been arrested by the people so that we can bring
you to a public trial. Between now and then, we ask you to
tell us where you have buried the Trinh fortune. If you tell
us, leniency will be shown at the trial. If you don't, the
people will impose the maximum penalty. Do you understand
what I am saying?"
"Yes, I do," I answered.
"You will address me, and everyone you talk to from now on,
as 'comrade'. Is that understood?"
"Yes, comrade," I answered meekly, keeping my head down. It
was no use irritating them. "The money of the Trinh clan was
sent to the south, little by little, over a period of years.
There is almost none left in the manor," I volunteered.
"Why was it sent south?" he asked, his voice hardening.
"Because my children all wanted to live in Sai Gon, where
their work had taken them, and because I needed capital
there to build up my new trading house. For import-export,
it is easier to do business from there than from Ha Noi."
"Were you intending to move south?"
"No. My ancestors' graves are here, and I am already old. I
will be buried here, but I have to take care of my children
and their future."
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I was at the Orange Pagoda with the Mad Monk. The Master was
sitting on a stone bench, one leg drawn up under him,
looking at the beaten earth. One hand massaged his toes, the
other held a fan. Occasionally, he fanned himself. I was in
front of him, on the same level, but I was neither sitting
nor standing. I was just there. I was the young boy I had
been then, bright, alert, strong, eager to learn; but I was
also the old man I was now, tired, broken, dressed in
stinking rags. The Mad Monk hadn't changed. He had never
changed in all the years I had known him. He was talking to
me, but he wasn't saying anything. He never looked at me in
front of him. He did not know I was there. My body was in
prison, my spirit was there in front of my Master. He died a
long time ago so we must have been meeting in Heaven. It was
a surreal scene, and though he never opened his mouth and
never once looked at me, I heard every word he was saying to
me. And although I hadn't asked him anything, he knew why I
had come.
"Master, if an unnatural death is inevitable, should a
spirit be saved?" I asked, without asking.
The Mad Monk never looked at me, but he knew what I had
said. The answer was not long in coming.
"Lord Buddha forbids suicide. Confucius says nothing on the
matter, but the tao believes in the ebb and flow of life,
which includes the giving of life, as when a mother gives
birth, and the taking of life, as when a terminally ill man
is put out of his misery by loving hands, to end his pain
and release his spirit. In the same way, the man who is
prepared can save his spirit by releasing it before death.
With chi gong, it takes only one single heartbeat."
*****
I locked my throat and anal muscles for the final step. My
heart, a bodily organ, smiled at the thought that I was
about to release my spirit and save it from desecration.
Imperceptibly, the two Cosmic Gateways were drawing even.
Across the cosmos, I saw my Father, and behind him my
Mother. They couldn't see me but they were facing in my
direction, smiling. They knew I was coming towards them.
Behind them were uncles and aunties who had looked after me
during my childhood, their arms raised, their hands reaching
towards me. I saw nanny, and then Xuan. Everyone was as they
had been when I was still a boy. No one had aged. As the
elixir of life seeped out of my lungs, I saw them more
clearly than ever. Without standing up I moved towards them,
smiling too. My Father raised his arms and opened his mouth
to say something and the sound of heavy chains being pulled
against a metallic post came out. Shocked and surprised, I
unintentionally opened my anal and throat muscles and my
chest was subjected to a violent blow as fresh oxygen
flooded back into my starving lungs. I saw the Gateway of
Death rapidly receding into the distance and I reached out
desperately, crying out to my parents.
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